Something personal…

I once had two dreams which are somehow similar, but they happened during separate occasions.

When I was primary 5, my parents decided to go their separate ways. Everything was changing too much for me and I realized I couldn't handle the stress. I literally didn't talk to anyone as I was very upset. One day, I told my classmate that I was planning to end my life. (Till now, I am not proud of what I tried to do.) On that day when the school bell rang, I went to some nearby block and went up to the highest floor. I placed one leg across the parapet and stayed at the position for close to 10 minutes (I dk why). Suddenly, when I was about to lift the other leg across, a voice in my head told me not to jump. Just then, an aunty saw me, shouted from her door and called me crazy. I was shocked and decided to go home. When I reached home, I cried to my parents about the situation. Sadly, I received a scolding from my father.

After few days of crying, I dreamt of myself lying in a dark room and a person was walking towards my direction. The person's face was not very clear as it was covered with a bright light. I remember very clearly that he took my hand and gave me a warm hug. I woke up and started to cry.

My second dream was when in secondary 3. I started to become another person; I was rude to my teachers, nonchalant about life and I started to smoke. One day, I dreamt of myself in a place full of fire around me. Suddenly a huge leg, with feet like a dragon's, landed in front of me. I couldn't see the rest of the body but at the moment I somehow knew I was in hell (I don’t know why). I knelt down immediately and begged for forgiveness from God. After a few minutes of intense praying, an angel lifted me up onto a mountain. He was enormous. While he was spreading his wings I approached him and rested on his left foot. I woke up and decided to do something about my life.

Well, because of these two dreams, I was somehow convinced that I have a guardian angel watching over me. You can say that I am weird… but I will continue believing in it.