Hunger

Finally, my first week of internship will be over after Sunday 4 hours shift. Honestly, this week had been a challenging week. Firstly, my job requires me to work on both on my weekends. Therefore, I can no longer fellowship with my fellow church friends after service, and which kind of upset me for the first day. However, thank God for friends and leaders, they had input positive thinking into my mind and I am okay now and I’m not affected by it anymore because I know through this situation I will know how to balance my time and really know how to manage my time.

The second thing that I felt challenging was… these few days, in fact close to 1-2 weeks; somehow I couldn’t feel God presence. It is not because I did not think about God or pray, but somehow when I worship, pray or listen to worship songs, I just couldn’t feel Him like I used to. In previous days, when I called out for Him, He will appear in my heart and just filled me with wisdom, love and strength. However, it did not have for the past few weeks. It made me so hungry for Him that I kept listening to worship songs and just kept crying out to Him whenever I was alone. However, I still did not feel His presence but I know my God is not a forsaken God and He has something to teach me through this situation.

Until just now during men’s meeting worship, I felt His presence like I never felt before for months. At that moment, I realised that I had taken advantage of Him. I know that He is always here for me and I did not have the hunger I had for Him before for these few weeks, because of my hunger for Him this week, I had a spirit encounter with Him during the men’s meeting. I was reminded that I did not find God when I was lost but God found me when I was lost. My life belongs to Him and I need to be consistent in being hungry for Him.

Well, as I am in my work (intern) season, I know God has His reasons in placing me where I am interning for the next 3 months. My hunger for Him will definitely grow for now onwards and it is time for me to go back to the basics; read His word, prayer and discipleship.

“Come and consume, God
All we are
We give you permission
Our hearts are Yours
We want You
We want You”

“But God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.” – Romans 5:8