“Sometimes it takes a good fall to really know where you
stand.”
For the past one month, I realized I was allowing all my
troubles and thoughts to stack up one after another. It has been very long
since I feel like giving up. Last night was one of the nights that I just
crashed and broke down.
To be honest, I am usually pretty good at cheering myself up;
I would watch South Park, Simpsons, and How I Met Your Mother etc. to lighten
my mood. However, all those shows suddenly did not work for me since about a
month ago. Little did I know, I began to feel very negative and trying to think
of positive things stopped working.
Back to the topic, last night, after I crashed and broke
down, I called my previous connect group leader. She talked to me and told me
that I must see things in a different perspective. On top of that, I must not
solve every problem all together. She said that I should solve them one at the
time because I’m just a 19 year-old boy and I forgot that I could lean on God
and seek God for help. It was one of those conversations where I received good
advice and listened to her.
This morning, I went to church feeling very tired. During
worship, we sang, “Christ is enough for me – Hillsong” and the bridge goes, “I have decided to follow Jesus.
No turning
back.
No turning back.
The cross before me
The world behind me.
No turning
back.
No turning back”. The song reminded me that I have Jesus, my best friend,
and I should lean on Him and continue to follow Him. I told myself I am going
to set plans for 2014 as it is coming soon and I should prepare myself for
upcoming challenges. This is because, I believe that every time I fall, I will
know where I have initially stood, so that I can continue from where I was,
tell myself to be stronger and go through these tough times.
